5th & Final Night

This is it. Tomorrow I'm leaving on a jet plane. Coming home to you.
I am very excited.

However...
Today I was strolling back to the hotel on the River Walk (which is on a channel, not a river) after visiting the Florida Aquarium (amazing!). I realized something. Since March 25, 2009, I have not had this significant amount of time BY MYSELF. I've gone out to dinner with Daddy or spent the afternoon hunkered down in the bedroom trying to finish a presentation. But I haven't had this experience of time as my own since pre-you.

You wanna know something?

It was kinda nice.
Ok! Before you flip out on me, let me explain.
I miss you. I hurt for you and going to the aquarium today did nothing to help me. All these families and children running around. Everything I looked at, touched, experience, my first thought was, "I wish Nora was here."

But you aren't here. I am alone. I've had copious amounts of "down time" to myself. Time to ponder, time to relax, time to rediscover me.
I am so well rested. I feel rejuvenated.

Maybe this time was apart wasn't so bad. I was able to remember what it's like to be on my own. Once you were conceived, I knew my life would never again only be my life. I'd always share it with you. I suppose you could say this about my wedding day too and your father. I never stopped thinking about you, but for awhile I was able to concentrate only on me and my needs. It felt good.
But I am ready to come home. I was ready the day I left. So tonight is my last night in Tampa. Good night and goodbye!

I couldn't kiss you tonight. But tomorrow night you'll be showered with my kisses and smothered in hugs.
See you later alligator.