Go Home and Be a Mommy

Today was my last day at work. Well I should clarify, the work where I get a pay check. It was a long day and after many goodbyes and so longs, one of my favorite teachers with tears in his eyes and mine said, "it's time to go home and be a mommy."

And that is essentially what I am doing. I am putting my own life on hold so I can be a full time mom to you and your sister. I am not confident. I am not sure this is the "right" decision. Heck, I have no idea if we will even survive, emotionally or financially. Oh we have crunched the numbers, we have prayed, we have thought about it. But I am still not sure. But I am sure I love you like no other person in the entire world. I have faith that my love will help me succeed. I don't think my masters or post graduate certifications are going to be much help.




We have been getting baby things out and ready. You are intensely curious about all things baby. You must touch or play with anything that is meant for the baby. Last weekend, all you wanted to do was play in your old infant car seats that I cleaned. It was cute until you started tipping yourself over. Now when I leave for work or just an errand, you have started to ask me if I am coming back. I try to reassure you that I will always come back to you. Your anxiety level is rising and you cling to me when I am home. Apparently, you are able to sense that the baby is coming soon and you need extra emotional support. In order to make you feel better, we go "splashing" at our local city pool. You are obsessed with the pool and so far I am using it as a very efficient bargaining tool.





We also went to Becca's ballet recital last weekend where you insisted wearing a tutu even though you weren't in the show. You absolutely loved all the dancers little and big. There was a group just a tad older than you who danced to Barney's "I love you" song. You were in heaven. Now you like to do ballet all over the house. We have some pretty ridiculous videos of your "performances" that I will have to post soon.





In other news, Aunt Katie, Uncle Kevin and TEDDY and Owie are coming home on Sunday! They are moving back to Maryland! Hooray! You will have a cousin living close to us!

Finally, there is a possibility that you are "reading" some words, really just decoding. So far you have identified the words "small" and "Sunday" that have been written out in the world. You randomly identified these words within 24hrs of each other without prompting. Both times your daddy and I have been completely baffled and caught off guard. We found it impossible that you could "read" these words but somehow you connected these symbols in your mind. In fact, when you identified the word small, we asked how you knew that it said small and you said, "S, M!" We had no idea you even knew the letters s and m. And for the record, we are not even sure if these two incidents are freak occurrences or you really were able to decode the symbols. I guess only time will tell.

I don't think I can keep up with you. But I guess, in a way, I am glad that my work is changing. Now I should have the time to be able to keep up with you and challenge and expose your young mind to new words and concepts. And we will have more time to visit Teddy and Owie too.