Friday, August 31, 2012

Going, Going, Gone

Another birthday, another year. Except, this year my new school which is this insane utopian  micro-community were so incredibly generous. A cake was made, a gift, good wishes, taken out to lunch. I worked 5 years in one school and not so much as a happy birthday was thrown my way. I've been at this school all of 5 minutes and I have been embraced and welcomed like I've been there for 20 years. It's a surreal place to work. The culture they breed is contagious and it gives me hope for the future.

Then home and a steak dinner and cupcake from J-Cafe for dessert with the Wagmans. And then a phone call from Nonna to wish me a happy birthday and to tell me her mother, my grandmother died that morning. She was old and sick and had been under hospice care for almost 3 months. But still. My grandmother died on my 31st birthday.

Daddy had prepped you in the bath the night before my birthday to wish me a happy birthday the next morning. I had little faith you would remember through the night. When I woke you up at 6:30am, right away you stretched your arms and little body into a long arch and exclaimed: "It's your birthday momma. Happy Birthday!"

Why would I have doubted you? I shouldn't be surprised anymore. When walking down the stairs, you asked me how old I was. When I thought about it, I said: "I'm 3 like you and 1 like Lucy!" I don't think my age will ever match you and Lu again.

Each moment, everyday is like a birthday candle...

Going,

Going,

Gone.

I love you girls.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Surviving

Going back to work has been a whirlwind of activity. Early mornings and late afternoons. Dinners and playing in the yard. You and Lu are doing well being full time in daycare. You both seem to gravitate toward the routine. Lucy is so busy and blossoming everyday. 

Nonna came to help with the consignment sale this past weekend, I was a co-chair. The sale was insane and crazy busy and oh! our aching feet. Daddy worked his butt off and so did Nonna. It was long days and stressful situations. You and Lucy were running around for most of the sale being passed from person to person, whoever was on break. Thank the Lord this weekend is consignment sale free and we can rest. Do a little birthday celebrating and just be together as a family.

So far, mornings are hectic but I love the job. I love the commute. I love the faculty. I'm glad I took the plunge and jumped back into working. But still, during the school day I go and I watch the pre-k class and think longingly of you and your sister. Of lost storytimes and picnics in the park. Afternoon naps and snuggles on the couch. I sure miss all of it.

God, I hope this is the right decision for us. There is nothing more important in my life than you and Daddy and Lucy Lu and that all three of you are happy and healthy. Nora, you like to say grace at dinner time. Tonight you said: "Dear Lord, thank you for salad and thank you for dressing. Thank you for spaghetti and bread and for Daddy and Mommy and Lucy. And thank you for cheese balls."  Since your father and I are working full time, we have become somewhat lax on the snack situation.... but after a long stressful day, I am thankful for the cheese balls too.


Sweet sisters. And among the invasion of black-eyed susans, Brandy's rose still blooms over Lucy's shoulder.

Lucy's first time enjoying a moon bounce while walking. At the twin's 2nd birthday.

Maybe they are related?

Lucy's first day at Ms. Patti. I love both expressions.

Playing after daycare and work. Poor Stan misses you girls too.
My goal is to post one more time before September starts. I know there are only 2 days left. Afterall those are the days to celebrate Nonna and me, entering this world 30 years a part.

Thursday, August 16, 2012

Unexpected Turn

After my last post back in July, I commented how this blog would be more of a priority in my life. I should have known that it would cause an unexpected turn of events. I saw a job posting for a Director of Educational Technology position at a local private school (less than 8 miles away). The job description fit my skill set perfectly. This job was made for me and in a school I always admired. The position is almost exactly what I was previously doing in my old school system. Three weeks ago, going back to work wasn't even in realm of possibility. Let alone full time work. But then I made the very savvy move to ask Uncle Kevin (the marketing shark) and Aunt Katie (the interviewing diva) to help me get my resume and cover letter together.

I sent in my application (resume and cover letter which Uncle Kevin revamped) on a Monday morning at 9am. By 2pm the same day, the school called me for an interview. 48 hours later I was interviewed and hired on the spot. I signed the contract this past Monday and my first day working as the Director of Educational Technology was today. 

I am exhausted and my head is spinning. I am still chairing the consignment sale. I am still a full time mom to you and Lucy Lu (duh, like that would ever change). Except now I also work full time too. You and your sister start daycare at Ms. Patti's full time on Monday 7am-5pm. This is not the life plan I thought our little family would follow. I thought I would have more time being a stay-at-home mom raising the two of you. But the opportunity fell into my lap and I couldn't turn my back on it. And a year from now, you Nora could possibly come to work with me and be able to attend one awesome school that we would not be able to afford without my employee discount. So we have changed the plan, we have made some sacrifices so that your future (and Lucy's too) are filled with choices and opportunities to develop your childhood and academic career in a unique setting that previously only our dreams would allow.

Now, I pray I won't drown. But coming home to you two will always be the highlight of my day. The smiles, the giggles, the chocolate goatees, the silliness, the lost lollipops stuck on Lucy's back will keep me afloat.