Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Is it already 2009?

New Years Eve is tonight. Time to say goodbye to 2008 and welcome in 2009. I really started celebrating NYE in 1999-2000. I was a senior in high school and we had fun. Maybe too much fun. 00-01 I had mono and was so sick but still had a good time with my friends. 01-02 we had a party at my boyfriend's house (he later became my husband) and we had fireworks!!! 03, 04, 05 & 06 were spent at a variety of parties and places including a roof in Baltimore watching the professional fireworks over the harbor. We welcomed 2007 in Rome. Ah, I miss Rome. We welcomed in 2008 as newlyweds with a kick ass party with family and friends.

So there are turning points in every one's life. And I think this NYE might be a big one for me. I am no longer the person I was 2000-2008. I was young, in college having fun with nothing to really worry about. Now I have a baby growing inside of me. No drinking. No hard core partying, just a nice party chatting and laughing with friends. I have to be a different person. I am now a mommy. I am someones mom!!!! I'm going to miss those NYE and one day my daughter might hear bits and pieces of some stories.

Don't get me wrong, I would not exchange my life for anything. I am looking forward to having a baby in 2009 and being a mommy. However, part of me has to morn the past. I will never have those years back. Sad.

Being a parent is something new and begins a new chapter in my life. Weird. I'm growing up more. I guess its true: you never stop growing and learning. My little girl will one day be a woman and hopefully I will be blessed to see her grow and go through different chapters of her own life. I think this entry was all over the place, but right now I am all all over the place. NYE is always exciting and fun but its also scary as we enter the unknown. This year is really uncertain since I have never been a parent before and I have no idea what to do with an infant. Hopefully 2009 will bring more confidence for the future!

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Post-Christmas Blah

As of Christmas, I have started my third trimester and let me tell you, this pregnancy thing is becoming increasingly harder with each passing minute. My belly button hurts... I fear it is popping but so far it is just sore. I have horrible indigestion & stomach cramps. I read that the baby is growing and needs more room so she is pushing up into my stomach causing these issues. Also, I become short of breath easier because of more pressure on my lungs. The OB appointment is on Monday where I get more tests. Hopefully everything is going to be ok. I have not been sleeping well since I am constantly worrying about things. Maybe this is what the experts call "nesting."

Speaking of nesting, Nels and I have started to demo the upstairs bathroom. We are completely gutting everything and starting over. It is a small bathroom and we are doing all the work so we hope to be done in a week or so. We have to use the bathroom down the basement. I am bothered by the huge mess and I want to clean and dust and have everything in it's place but that can't happen during construction. I am lucky that Nels knows what he is doing, otherwise this remodel would be taking a lot longer and be a lot more expensive. I hopefully can get back to my nesting soon.

Besides all of my complaining, my winter break is going well. Christmas was very exciting with my family. We are so loud and rambunctious there is hardly time to rest. Our pets are conked out today because they barely slept for 3 days with everything going on!

I think I am going to start to register for baby things soon. Many people have asked if we have things done / ready. Ummm, no. Nothing is done. Our excuse is that we have to remodel the bathroom first. But the reality is we don't have time to get things very organized. We have picked out a crib, it will come from IKEA because I refuse to spend an arm and a leg on a crib. We love IKEA in this family!!!

I am re-reading this and realizing that: 1. I am whiny. 2. I am boring. I won't blame you if you never come back to read my blog again. Maybe I will be more creative later on and have something interesting to say!

Saturday, December 20, 2008

It's been awhile...

I know! I am a bad blogger. The entire month of November was forgotten and half of December. Heck! It's almost Christmas and my last entry was on Halloween. I have no real excuses for my laziness. Here is my attempt at an explanation:
  • 7th graders are tiring!
  • Finishing my first John Hopkins post-graduate class
  • Had a severe case of bronchitis during Thanksgiving break
  • Magnet applicants for next year's 6th grade class
  • First time our 7th graders took an online technology assessment for the state of Maryland= 10th circle of hell
  • Getting fatter by the hour is also very tiring
  • Needing to eat every 2 hours
  • Needing to pee every 2 hours

See I told you no real excuse. I have had 2 OB appointments since Halloween. One was the BIG ultrasound on November 4th where we found out we are going to have a girl! Well, you could have pushed me over with a feather. I was CONVINCED it was a boy. I really thought I was carrying a boy. I had to ask the technician about 3 times if she was sure. After the shock wore off & my mom gave me the little pink & white dress, I came home from the hospital in... I was hooked. OUR daughter is growing inside me. We are going to have a little girl and I couldn't be more excited. I am going to fight the pink battle though. It can be hard. Those little pink clothes are just divine!! But our daughter will not be forced all things pink. Her room will be a purply/gray with Baby Snoopy (in memory of my beagle!). I love the blue/green/purple/yellow combination of the crib set.

Even more awesome then learning about her sex, Nels and I got to see how perfect she is! During the ultrasound we saw the four chambers to her heart and see that her heart was working exactly as it should be. We actually saw the blue/red flowing through her little heart and the valves opening/closing. We saw her absolutely perfect spine & stomach & kidneys & hands & feet! Her head and her lungs & practically everything. Amazing does not describe what it was like to see all of that! And we found found out that our baby girl has no "markers," meaning NO concerns or red flags for potential problems. SHE REALLY IS PERFECT!!!

I am worried about my OB appointment right after Christmas where I will be tested for gestational diabetes. I am nervous since everything is going along so well. I really can't complain about much. I still run around, not quite as fast. I was really sick around Thanksgiving with bronchitis but as for the baby & being pregnant, I am not too worse for the wear. I am becoming increasingly concerned that my belly button will pop out. I am working on accepting the fact that it probably will and I will have to deal with it.

Christmas is less than a week and it's exciting but Christmas also marks the beginning of the 3rd trimester!!! Hooray! Only another 3 months until we meet our little girl!!!

I will update before 6 weeks this time... I promise.